The Kind Of YouTuber I Want To Be

Hello! Another blog post from me! And I am listening to mash ups while I write! (I found some really good ones recently!) And as I was just posting on my Twitter, I thought about what kind of YouTuber I want to be, especially if my dream came true and I was more well known. I have always had a mentality of kindness with YouTube, which some people I have encountered haven't had. I mean, I have been sent insults, death threats and a lot of un-niceness. But never once have I wavered. Sure I may get a little mad now and then but if my fans -or should I say friends, are kind to me, and support me, I will be just as kind. I see it as I would be nowhere on YouTube without them and their amazing support. They can keep me happy and sane during the worst of days, and I have had plenty of those. I have also met a LOT of amazing people through my channel who watch my videos, and I would list them as a thank you but I honestly can't because there are so many! You guys know who you are! The kind of people I try to avoid are the ones who just say mean things for no reason. I personally value peoples opinions heavily, or at least try to. I mean, if someone likes a band I don't like, I don't make fun of them for it, I just accept it. If they ask me my opinion on them I say I am not a fan, without degrading their views. So if someone doesn't do the same for me and tries to say my opinion is wrong because they have a different opinion, that's when I become hostile. I personally prefer peace and I am not a violent person. But I have strong beliefs and get very angry when my beliefs are mocked. And I get this every once in a while. I try to be nice first, but I can get annoyed. I just thought I would write about this. Thank you if you have stuck with me this long, and I hope I can say that too more of you in the future :)

xxxx

Always Be Yourself.

Hello again! Its 3:22am and I just watched Ellen Page's speech at a LGBT event. If you havent seen it yet here it is:

I thought it was brilliant, inspiring and brave too. I mean you can clearly tell she was nervous. Her voiced cracks and quivers at some points. I felt for her. But the main point of it is she spoke about how she has had to hide who she is for a long time and its been really getting her down. And it made me think about myself. I didn't really fully know who I was until a few years ago, but I knew most of it. I like my rock'n'roll music and favour long hair and "emo" clothing over what the majority like and wear. And for many years this caused a great rift in my life. I went through secondary (high) school being constantly bullied everyday, attacked and abused. It got to the point where I started to question myself and ask "is it really that bad just to be like them?" and it has taken a long time to find the answer. And that answer is "YES". I was miserable pretending, miserable when I wasn't. But now I am away from it all I can reflect on myself, what I want, and ignore what they want me to be. You see, to me, some people follow a crowd rather than being themselves because they don't know who they are or they are too scared to be themselves in fear that people won't accept them for who they are. Which directs me back to Ellen's speech. There are people out there just like you and me fighting each and every day, trying to make a better world, and better lives for themselves and everyone else going through the same issues. Societies issue with them is their sexuality and some choose to mock and ridicule them for it. So even though I myself am straight, I feel sort of connected, and inspired to keep being and finding myself, and to try and help those out there that have the issue I, and many others have had to go through.

If you are going through anything like this, or you are being bullied or mistreated in any way, just remember this. Life DOES get better no matter how bad it gets or seems. You will find your happiness and what you want in life. And the pain will go away, trust me on that one.

- Ocean (21/02/2014)

My Blog!!

Hello! Welcome to what I will call my blog but what should be called "ocean talks about shit."

I plan to post here a lot more and hopefully make it a good read for ya too. Heres hoping (-^_^-)b

So anyway theres been stuff happening the past few months. I decided that this year will be my last year in college, as I want to move on and start making a life for myself in this world we call ours. I have no idea how to feel about this. I am excited to live for myself and to have that independence, but I am also terrified of change. And this will be a HUGE change. The best part will be I can make videos whenever I want to so there may be more than 1 video a week if I have some good ideas. If you didnt know my current setback is my dad. He wouldn't like me filming when he is here coz I admit I make a mess, and I can be rather loud. So I have to wait until he is out of the house to film. I get wednesdays and thursdays off, hence why my timetable is a vid every wednesday. But I am hoping maybe I can manage 2 videos a week as soon as I have moved away. Another thing that I feel is bothering me is myself. I am not sure who I am anymore or what I want. I KNOW I want to make videos for YouTube, and that will never change. But I don't see it going anywhere soon so I am trying to find something to excite me and keep me smiling. Which isn't happening right now. A part of this is because ever since I was about 14, I have wanted to find the right girl to live my life with. Now I have dated a few girls, and been taught a LOT of lessons, but not once have I found what I need. And I want it so bad it tears me apart. Its one reason I hate valentines day so much. I see couples being happy and enjoying their love, and I sit here thinking "why isn't that me?" And I keep looking, and will always keep hoping that I will find her, but it seems that is not my fate right now. Anyhoo ENOUGH WITH THE DEPRESSING SHIT RIGHT?!? Heres a walking dead meme:

If you didnt get the joke you suck. No seriously you do. I asked the pope and he agreed. Then he jumped up into the popemobile and drove away, nitrous blasting from his holy exhaust pipes, which funnily enough are made from the pipes of an organ. 

                                                                      I'M JOKING!!

But seriously please don't kill me with that spoon I see in your hand....yes that's right I CAN SEE YOUUUU!

So I got a college trip to go on in a week or so. First day back too which is awesome! We are going to some TV show recording that I have never heard of hosted by some dude I have never heard of. Should be fun....? Anyways I just wanted to get this started and see where it takes me. Leave comments on my twitter @AGuyNamedOcean if you want to (if you do, you need you're head examined.....you also need that just for reading this.) And I hope to talk to you guys and gals again soon! :)

                                                              XX OCEAN OUT!! XX