Always Be Yourself.

Hello again! Its 3:22am and I just watched Ellen Page's speech at a LGBT event. If you havent seen it yet here it is:

I thought it was brilliant, inspiring and brave too. I mean you can clearly tell she was nervous. Her voiced cracks and quivers at some points. I felt for her. But the main point of it is she spoke about how she has had to hide who she is for a long time and its been really getting her down. And it made me think about myself. I didn't really fully know who I was until a few years ago, but I knew most of it. I like my rock'n'roll music and favour long hair and "emo" clothing over what the majority like and wear. And for many years this caused a great rift in my life. I went through secondary (high) school being constantly bullied everyday, attacked and abused. It got to the point where I started to question myself and ask "is it really that bad just to be like them?" and it has taken a long time to find the answer. And that answer is "YES". I was miserable pretending, miserable when I wasn't. But now I am away from it all I can reflect on myself, what I want, and ignore what they want me to be. You see, to me, some people follow a crowd rather than being themselves because they don't know who they are or they are too scared to be themselves in fear that people won't accept them for who they are. Which directs me back to Ellen's speech. There are people out there just like you and me fighting each and every day, trying to make a better world, and better lives for themselves and everyone else going through the same issues. Societies issue with them is their sexuality and some choose to mock and ridicule them for it. So even though I myself am straight, I feel sort of connected, and inspired to keep being and finding myself, and to try and help those out there that have the issue I, and many others have had to go through.

If you are going through anything like this, or you are being bullied or mistreated in any way, just remember this. Life DOES get better no matter how bad it gets or seems. You will find your happiness and what you want in life. And the pain will go away, trust me on that one.

- Ocean (21/02/2014)